| my hopes are high and my dreams are coming true |
[30 Jun 2004|11:56am] |
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I know i havn't written in like forever but hey what can i say. ive been working everyday. After somethings happened i decided not to write in here but now that thats out of my life im so much happier no more negtativity.
my two jobs are going really good by the end of this summer im going to be rich baby
But on a lighter note im still single and lookin but the next girl that comes into my life im going to treat with royality because im done chasing if a girl really wants to be with me she will and she won't give me bullshit excuses like lots of the other girls i dated. im to old to be play little kid games i just want someone to appriate me for who i am not the little things i do or how i act.
so if your someone who wants a steady relationship and someone that won't treat you like shit just give me a call. =)
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
and let me slip away [4x]
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
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| Its Me |
[16 Apr 2004|03:50pm] |
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Prom is coming up and i bought my tickets me and my date are going 50's style baby o yeah. Then after that we are having a party at the apartment witch will be fun because my crew will be there with their dates. O wo much has happend in the last few days it's amaseing or however you spell it im in a good place mentally and physically i have decided a relationship is going to have to hold because i just going to wait until i find someone who fits my needs and wants to be with me whereever she is i'll be waiting. im not goint to be doing much because im running out of money because prom is setting me back a little but i don't mind for once i don't care about spending lots of money, even on my date because she is one of my good friends. O yeah i almost forgot the band is doing good we are finally getting back on track and you can expect shows soon and lots of fun because i have such a good feeling we are going to make it. I haven't been writing songs because iv'e lost my will to write because a while back i was depressed but im back. Ive also realized that to get ahead in a life you have to be an ass and lately i have been its new for me but what the hell if it will help me in the long run o welp. The one thing that has buged me and is bugging is when people say the things i do are cute or they call me little when im 2-3 years older then me that just piss's me off.
I would just like to note THat i have changed in a big way so learn to like it.
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| o yes |
[05 Apr 2004|05:49pm] |
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ive offically got 2 jobs 7+8.50 an hour im starting my new job tommarow at the yankee candle and then on to other stores o yeah my life is going good im going to start right after shcool so chances are that im only going to have limited time with my friends but im goin to try because i have a comitment to my band
stay true
stay you
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| ok so here it is |
[05 Apr 2004|03:26pm] |
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im in a really good mood today i found out im passing math and i stayed after for extra help. which is a first. I am a little upset thou about what i heard a friend dear to me told me and its been making me a little edgey but i try not to let it ruin my day. I list no names because if my friend gets exposed and then scolded i will flip out. Yeah so anyways 80's Dance im going with my crew we're goin to roll 80's style o yeah. If i've seem different because i feel different inside its like i went to sleep and woke up a different person im gonna stop being nice to people who upset me and only be nice to those who stay close to me and who know me.
What you think you know is only a part of me
my good cancels my bad
for my future cancels my past
don't judge me
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| one thing i seen |
[01 Apr 2004|02:25pm] |
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the one thing ive seen throu my eyes
its not something that i despises
ill embrace it
instead of erasing it
my dreams i hold on to
for never will they fade
faith i look to
as i step out of the shade
to this i tell my friends
this isn't where the road ends
o no it goes on
we have just started down the road
with each step we grow
with each new thing we know
face your fears
shed your tears
cause in the long run you'll win
if you stay loyal to yourself and your friends
theres nothing you can't do
if you are truely happy inside
then people around you will see it and they will
be happy as well
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| i don't know |
[31 Mar 2004|02:18pm] |
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im feeling sick today and it hurts really bad ive never felt this sick before but o well life sucks but you go on.im probally not going to be writing in this anymore but hey it was fun while it lasted.
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| THings o no |
[30 Mar 2004|02:17pm] |
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Ok so everything is going good there isn't really anymore thension with my friends for the most part the fighting has stopped o thank god !!! I've wrote about 6 songs in the past 2 days mostly about what ive been feeling ive been tring to hold my head up high but sometimes its hard. I know for the most part i seem happy but im just content aslong as i have my friends by my side i know everything is going to work out fro me. Musics my piece of mind my soul and when i play i release the inner me my hopes dreams and fears and my happiness. I know that for me life isn't all bad because if your always looking at the bad how can you truely have fun when the good does come around. YOu won't because youll be blinded by the bad, If a blind man was to always think how can i go on if i can't see, all the time how would he learn to live he wouldn't but if he took what he did have and make the best of it then there is nothing that can stop him with the right determination and a brave heart he could do whatever he wanted. well sometimes you have to be the blind person and make the good out of whatever comes your way.
WEll thats the way im going to see things from now on.
My band is going topractice soon which will be good because we need it and i know with the right determination we will truely make but if not o well whos to say that we didn't try.
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| The REAson |
[28 Mar 2004|06:12pm] |
i'm not a perfect person. there are many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning. i never meant to do those things to you.
and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know
i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
i'm sorry that i hurt, its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears, thats why i need you to hear
i'm not a perfect person, i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go that i just want you to know
i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
i've found a reason to show a side of me you didnt know
a reason for all that i do, and the reason is you
_Hoobastank_
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| HI |
[28 Mar 2004|05:03pm] |
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OK so im not good at this journal thing but im ceriously about to give it a try. I completely sad right now i just got back from a really long drive i took this road that i took the other night i got scared so i turned around because i didn't want it to lead me somewhere else. But today i went on it and i didn't look back i wanted to so much but i didn't im sick of being scared all the time it sucks. From now on im going to be braver and im also going to stand up for myself more because if i can start doing that then who knows what else im capiable of doing. Lifes a one way street you can't turn back now sometimes you just got to keep on going and enjoy every second of it life gets you down but you got to stand up and start walking again. life is about trying new things sometimes you have to look fear in the eyes and tell him that your not scared anymore. "from now until forever live life one day at a time don't always look at the bad because only can bring you down but staying strong and standing up for what you believe in is wonderful."
YOu are what you make it
life wasn't easy at the very start
it took alot of courage and it took alot of heart
its my time to learn and its my time to shine
i live my life one day at a time
So when you got no luck and your
life is stuck
remember these rhymes
and remember the good times
the day with your girl and
the day with your friends
all these things i hope it never ends
Well im gonna go but you can be sure ill be back
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| im sorry |
[27 Mar 2004|04:38pm] |
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Heather im sorry for not telling you how i was feeling i guess i was scared ill talk more to you tommarrow.
its just this is how my last relationship started and i don't want to lose you, you are one of the biggest things in my life right now.
well ill see you tommarrow bye. I hope you had fun last night.
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| so there once was a man who did the best he can... |
[02 Mar 2004|03:30pm] |
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Ok its been a while because of "things" The talent show was a few nights back and we kicked so much ass there was no more ass's to kick. Im going crazy because im so bored right now that i don't know what to do or write so im going to keep on typing until i get tired. ok im getting tired. But anyways today was a good day because im not sick anymore and i can eat. well im gonna go and make my journal look better.
P.s. if you want to be my friend i will add you just ask i promise everything will be a o k
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| so there once was a man who did the best he can... |
[02 Mar 2004|03:22pm] |
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Ok its been a while because of "things" The talent show was a few nights back and we kicked so much ass there was no more ass's to kick. Im going crazy because im so bored right now that i don't know what to do or write so im going to keep on typing until i get tired. ok im getting tired. But anyways today was a good day because im not sick anymore and i can eat. well im gonna go and make my journal look better.
P.s. if you want to be my friend i will wdd you just ask i promise everything will be a o k
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| no school |
[06 Feb 2004|12:53pm] |
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today i wrote 2 new songs and went to wendys to get my check then i stayed home and burned a cd. I watched some tv and thats about it ain't that a funn day hopefully i going out tonight to hang out with my crew
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